Worth the fight

Last night my roommates and I were discussing the new facebook phenomenon "Can this pickle get more fans than Nickleback?", which launched a rousing conversation on the random cheesy music preferences of our friends. At one point my roomies may have broken out in song, belting "what's worth the price is always worth the fight". For whatever reason this lead us to Miley Cyrus and my rendition of "It's the Climb", a clear crowd-pleaser for sure.

In the morning I tend to wake up with a song lyric in my head that doesn't leave for most of the day. Much to my chagrin, I woke up singing "what's worth the price is always worth the fight". To give you a hint of my awareness of pop culture I was convinced this was an Adam Lampert song until I started to write this blog and made the connection from last night's discussion to my morning melodies. But regardless of how it got there, I spent most of the morning tacitly exploring those words. What is worth the fight?

Lately, I have been thinking a lot about the fight we fight as Christians in our daily lives. As the hands and feet of Christ we are bringing in the Love and Reign of God's kingdom as we pray and love those around us. We fight a battle that Christ has already one, and yet we often times fall prey to some sophisticated battle tactics in Spiritual Warfare. One way we often experience Spiritual Warfare is the societal pressures that cause us to doubt the truth of what God says about us and to live in the knowledge that we are fully loved and fully secure in God's love. This is exceptionally difficult for me because of the nagging voice inside that demands a defense of God's love in my everyday life. If God loves me, than why am I in so much pain? Why are things so messed up? As a result, I am prone to jealousy, anger and despair as I struggle to understand why I am not loved and accepted by those around me.

I understand that my image of myself is lower and more troubled than what those around me are likely to think. The fact remains that I struggle, as I am sure many of you do. Coincidentally, I am not the only one thinking about these things and will join some friends and family in reading Beth Moore's new book along with over 6,000 women across the country who will participate in the study and discussion group attached to her blog. Together we will fight to claim the victory and love of Christ in our everyday lives as we learn the ways in which our insecurities have eroded our belief in God's all-consuming and justifying love.

This bible study will be a fight, a fight to sort through the lies I tell myself and to surround myself with the truth of God's word. But I am sure that "what's worth the price is always worth the fight". Christ has paid the price for me. For my life. For His love. It is worth the fight, because it took the ultimate price.